March, how ya doing ;)?

I am looking forward to a better month. 

Last month wasn't exactly a great month. I have never felt this lonely, ever. I wasn't at the peak of my health and its probably because of that. Loneliness can be worst then, I have learned. February 2012 taught me that. A couple of years back if I was to make a choice between compromise and loneliness, I would have chosen the latter. 

Although, even today, I believe that would continue to be my choice. Companionship is fantastic but I want to be with somebody who makes my heart go dhak-dhak. At least, a little. What's the point if I don't want to kiss the person next to me in bed every morning and every night? And a lot many times during the day if I get a chance :). I believe my expression of love is rather physical. Even platonic expression for that matter. I hug a few selective close friends an awful lot. I hug and kiss my mom and grand mom.

The trouble with dhak-dhak is, I haven't been in a relationship over the past decade. I have dated, without substance obviously. When I was 25 I said to myself "I have five more years to be in a relationship, what's the rush?" and now I am mostly "OMG, what the fuck did I do in the last decade?" I speak to my single friends, some fantastic people, and the story is apparently the same everywhere. But then, I also speak to my coupled friends and they are happy. I believe, some seem to have the dhak-dhak going for them. 

I am an optimist so I would never give up on the idea of love. It probably will evolve over the years and this blog shall be a testament of how it does!

Enough personal introspection. I am feeling better now and therefore looking forward to a very productive month at work and a rocking personal life. I start working out this week and looking forward to it.

In spite of not being a great month, it was special. Mom completed 38 years of banking service with Bank of India. She's a rock star. At least to her kids. 

And then I met a friend from UK and some of his awesome friends. 

Life should fall in place now. Some parties and catching up with good friends over weekends. Writing - crucial and important. Being open to professional opportunities.

On an upbeat note, I have been very impressed with my Honda Activa recently. I bought it in Bangalore in 2005 and when I moved to Mumbai in 2009 it simply sat collecting dirt for an year. The moron who was supposed to transfer the registration took more than an year to do so. So it wasn't in use. It wouldn't button start, no matter what I did. Then last week, I decided to take it to work for the first time. Two stations away to Goregoan, where I work. In Mumbai I have learned to establish distance with "number of stations" as the measurement unit. And to my pleasant surprise, the button start has begun to work. It is same with our bodies. We need to keep running and being serviced in order to being alive and kicking. In order to button start at the advent of every single day. 

Now back to living, making the most of every single day. Like life should be!